to P (:

eve of christmas was spent well with friends at the WJLA chalet. it was (Y)
friday and the weekends was spent with family. happy, atleast i thought it would be.
sunday sucked. it was the most suckiest day of my whole 2009 i supposed.
for now, i don't think i'll regard you as my father. maybe later on in the years when you finally decide to grow up and be a responsible husband. i'm sorry, you were my best dad, now, i don't know who the fuck you are anymore.

things are getting on the downturn for me in the last few days of 2009.
first, it was family. then it was health. and now, my heart.
i guess some issues can never be settled huh?
fuck it.

i think i'm giving up on some of the things that i wish it would be best for me. its time to let things go and to look forward for better things to come in life. it may not be now but it may come in the future. god knows. He's the one who created my book, i can be the one who edits it or just follow the way that its meant to be.

now, i'll just sit back and think about how my life has been turning out this year.
the people i've lost, the people i've gained and the people i think i'm going to lose.
i might not update on new years eve. depends. and so;
happy new year to everyone. may you have a blessful 2010 ahead.
take care readers.

yesterday i didn't attend work cause i had fucking back pain and i kept vomiting. i don't know what i ate on sunday night or didn't eat till i had this stupid thing. but yeah. i'm k right now. i guess. haha. so anyways, met up with zr in the mornz. lepaked at my place and then afternoon headed off to training. poor kiddo. relaxed and got changed to meet bestest at inter. we walked around tampines one then headed to laguna at east coast by cab.

dinner with the bunch of friends was (Y) they seriously know how to make your day a happy one eventhough in life things just suck at all times. but seriously. yeah. headed back home via cab and i was like one stupid girl to cry infront of the whole gang. luckily they didn't notice except for bestest, annisa and park. pfft. i damn malu k. but whatever. i can never hide things. shetupidsz.

work was (Y) today. i didn't had problematic patients. made my day. and so did the staffs there. bestest, annisa and park picked me up. before that we had lunch together. haha. thanks guys. after work headed to tampines one topman with the girls. park headed back home. now, at bestest's place together with annisa.

dear taslim, i hope you're well. i hope you're happy (:
you know where to find me always.

if i can get you by new years, its the best gift i can ask for. cause boy, you make me smile. even if you didn't do much.